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Ver. 13. O spare me, that I may recquer strength, be
fore I go bence, and be no more.
THY is it that we do not extremely hate that
which we lo desperately love, fin? For the deformity of itself is unspeakable; and besides, it is the cause of all our woes: Sin hath opened the fluices, and lets in all the deluges of sorrows, which makes the life of poor man nothing else but vanity and misery ; so that the meanest orator in the world may be eloquent enough on that subject. What is our life, but a continual succession of many deaths ? Though we should say nothing of all the bitternesfes and vexations that are hatched under the sweetest pleasures in the world, this one thing is enough, the multitudes of diseases and pains, the variety of diftempers, that those houses we are lodged in are exposed to. Poor creatures are oft-times toffed betwixt two, the fear of death, and the tediousness of life ; and under these fears they cannot tell which to choose. Holy men are not exempted from some apprehensions of God's displeasure because of their fins; and that may make them cry out with David,
Spare me, that I may recover strengtb, before I go bence, and be no more. Or, perhaps, this may be a defire, not so much fimply for the prolonging of life, as for the intermitting of his pain; to have ease from the present smart: the extreme torment of some ficknels may draw the most fixed and confident spirits to cry out very earnestly for a little breathing; or rather, if it be the desire of a recovery, and the spinning out of the thread of his life a little longer, surely he intended to employ it for God and his service; but long life was suitable to the promises of that time; so Hezekiah, ļsa. xxxvij. There is no doubt these holy men, under the law, knew fomewhat of the
ftate of immortality, Heb. xi.; they, calling themselves strangers on earth, argued that they were no strangers to these thoughts; but it cannot be denied, that that doctrine was but darkly laid out in these times; it is Christ Jesus that batb brought life and immortality to light, who did illuminate life and immortality, that before stood in the dark.
Surely the desire of life is, for the most part, fensual and base, when men defire that they may still enjoy their animal pleasures, and are loath to be parted from them. They are pleased to term' it, a defire to live and repent; and yet few do it when they are fpared ; like evil debtors, who defire forbearance from one term to another, but with no design at all to pay. But there is a natural defire of life, something of abhorrence of nature against the dissolution of these ta bernacles. We are loath to go forth, like children who are afraid to walk in the dark, not knowing what may be there. In fome, such a defire of life may be very reasonable; being surprised by fickness, and apprehensions of death, and lin unpardoned, they may defire a little time before they enter into eternity; for that change is not a thing to be hazarded upon a few days or hours preparation : I will not say that death-bed repentance is altogether desperate, but certainly it is very dangerous, and to be suspected; and therefore, the defire of a little time longer, in such a case, may be very allowable.
I will not deny but it is possible, even for a believer, to be taken in such a posture, that it may be very uncomfortable to him to be carried off so, through the affrightments of death, and his darkness as to his after-state. On the other hand, it is an argument of a good measure of spirituality and height of the love of God, to dehre to depart, and be dissolved, in the midst of health, and the affluence of worldly comforts; but for men to defire and wish to be dead, when they are troubled and vexed with any thing, is but a childish folly, flowing from a discontented mind,
which being over, they defire nothing less than to die. It is true there may be a natural desire of death, which at sometimes hath shined in the spirits of fome natural men; and there is much reason for it, not only to be freed from the evils and troubles of this life, but even from those things which many of this foolish world account their happiness, sensual pleasures, to eat and drink, and to be hungry again; and still to round that same course, which, to souls that are raised above sensual things, are burdensome and grievous.
But there is a spiritual defire of death, which is very becoming a Christian; for Jesus Christ hath not only opened very clearly the doctrine of eternal life, but he himself hath passed through death, and lain down in the grave; he hath perfumed that paffage, and warmed that bed for us; so that it is sweet and amiable for a Christian to pass through and follow him, and to be where he is. It is a strange thing, that the souls of Christians have not a continual desire to go to that company which is above, (finding so much discord and disagreement among the best of men that are here); to go to the spirits of just men made perfect, where there is light and love, and nothing else, to go to the company of angels, an higher rank of blessed spirits
, but most of all, to go to God, and to Jesus the Mediator of the New Testament. And, to say nothing positively of that glory, (for the truth is, we can say nothing of it), the very evils that death delivers the true Christian from, may make him long for it; for such an one may say, “ I shall die, and go to a more “ excellent country, where I shall be happy for ever, 66 that is, I shall die no more, I shall forrow no more, “ I shall be fick no more ; and, which is yet more • confiderable, I shall doubt no more, and shall be “ tempted no more; and, which is the chiefest of all, " I shall fin no more.”
End of the Lectures on Psalm xxxix.
HE division of this chapter (were that to any
great purpose) may be stated thus : I. The prophet's vision, from ver 1. to the 3.
In the year
that king Uzziah died I saw also the Lord fitting upon a throne, high and lifted up, and his train filled the temple. 2. Above it food the seraphims : each one had fix wings ; with twain be covered his face, and with twain he covered his feet, and with twain be did fly. 3. And one cried unto another, and
said, Holy, boly, holy is the Lord of bots; the whole earth is full of his glory.
II. The effects of it upon him, relating to his calling, from ver. 4.--13. And the posts of the door moved at the voice of him that cried, and the house was filled with smoke, &c.
In the vision, besides the circumstances of time and place specified, ver. 1. we have a glorious representation of the majesty of God, ver. 2. A suitable acclamation, a voice of praise being joined with it, ver. 3, 4.
The effects of it on the prophet towards his calling are three, viz. I. His preparation; II. His miffion; III. His message. I. The preparation, in these two particulars : 1. Humiliation : 2. Purification, ver. 6, 7. a deep conviction, and then effectual removal of pollution. VOL. II.
II. In his mission we have three things : 1. God's inquiry for a messenger, ver. 8. former part. 2. The prophet's offer of himself, the latter part of ver. 8. 3. God's acceptance, ver. 9. former part. III. His message, a heavy commination, from ver. 9.--12. yet allayed with a gracious mitigation, ver. 13. The judgment very lasting and wasting, yet a remnant reserved.
Ver. 1. In the year that king Uzziah died I faw also
the Lord fitting upon a throne, high and lifted up, and his train filled the temple.
I saw.] Observe the freedom of God in his choice of men to be near him and know him; and in the measuring out the degrees of discovery unto those men differently, some had extraordinary revelations ; and though prophetic vifions now cease, yet there are certainly higher and clearer corruscations of God upon fome fouls, than many others, that yet are children of light, and partake of a meafure of that light shining within them ; thus we are not carvers and choofers, and therefore are not peremptorily to desire any thing in kind or measue that is fingular, that were pride and folly ; but above all things we are to esteem, and submissively defire still more and more knowledge of God, and humbly to wait and keep open the passage of light, not to close the windows, not to be indulgent to any known sin, or impure af. fection, that will soon obftruct it: Into a filthy foul wisdom will not enter.
In the year that king Uzziah died I saw the Lord on his throne.] There is another king named here, to denote the time by, but he was a difeased and a dying king, who lived fome years a leper, and then died. Men may speak in a court style of vain wishes, O king live for ever : But this King here on the throne, is indeed the King immortal, the ever living God.