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of mind about it-wished I'had done as Peter did, and rode in my new coat-went to bed heavyhearted-slept little. .“ Thursday, Sept. 4.-Up rose the sun soonnot so soon up rose 1-looked out at the windowin my mind's eye saw Peter unlock the two gates and go to the church-wished to see with my bodily eye the portmanteau on the servant's shoulder coming, as I had seen it going, but no such good luck -gent after it once more-all in vain-wrote five letters, one to Mr. Meade representing, in pathetic terms, my distress, and imploring his assistance and one to young Peter, inviting him to Kintbury, on Sunday, to hear Farnborough news, if not better engaged, and bring young Meyrick with him on recollection could not, with honour, bé omitted -had given him reason to expect it-he had seen Miss M
a t Ramsbury in my absence—had intimated that a letter would find its way without difficulty. I would not willingly forfeit Peter's good opinion--read Hanway's travelsmhis motto
Never despair,'-hope my portmanteau is not lost; company to dinner-conversation of farmers sometimes not less amusing than that of literary menperhaps not less edifying—in the evening a sober game of whist-door opened—who comes ?-enter portmanteau-joy in every countenance particularly mine-Hanway in the rightoa sensible man
best never to despair-remember that...
Friday, Sept. 5.-Up soon after six o'clock breakfasted at eight-wrote another letter to Mr. Meade to say, a little patience would hạve saved me the trouble of writing and him of reading both have heard of the patience of Job to little purpose, as of many other virtues--went to Church con, gregation reminded me of Peter's at the Octagon
three old women, including myself-dined out
had no reason to complain--received as much as communicated trust I did not come worse out of
company than I went in-bad indeed if I did-coneluded with a rubber. .
“ Saturday, Sept. 6.—By an act of violence, turned myself out of bed soon after six o'clockshaved my head all over an easier task than formerly, thanks to Old Time--he, with his razor, has smoothed the way for me--meditated a ride to Mr. Sawbridge's--threatened rain-glad of an ex- . cuse_indolence prevailed-read Hanway's Travels
his story of Nadir Shah curious but horrida read what you will, no denying the Fall: all nature; all history bear witness to the truth of Revelation
-walked in the garden to prepare the stomach for the food, while the food was preparing for the stomachafter dinner sat á while-made a partie quarrée in the evening, and went to bed in good time. : : "Sunday, Sept. -7.-Got up once more a day of rest but not of idleness : lawful to do good on the Sabbath-day devoted to pleasure-right, if pleasure be devotion. Dr. Delany reckons up the natural advantages of the Sabbath_it promotes cleanliness, and cleanliness conduces to health rest from labour renews strength, and enables to perform more labour thought on Peter at the Oc: tagon-not a whit behind Frank in illustrating Scripture truths-audience in raptures about ten o'clock arrived young Peter, and his young com. panion, in good time for church; had a serious walk, Peter and I in the garden-seemed to be reconciled to study and confinement-expressed my hopes, though the Duke of Somerset and Lord Webb had carried off a great deal of Greek and Latin with them, they had left à sufficient quantity for him--both young visitors preferred duck to boiled mutton-played a good knife and fork with that and apple-pie-went to Church in the afternoon-drank tea-finished with a piece of plumcake and a glass of wine, and took leave, to all
appearance perfectly well pleased with their excur, sion in the evening read Bishop Horne's Considerations on the Life and Death of John the Baptist —not inferior to the best of his works.
“ Monday, Sept. 8.-A dull morning, wet, and likely to be so, barometer sunk, spirits low-the influence of the air on the body, and, while in the body, on the soul, very great: what wonder! in it we live and move, and have our being-exercise necessary to quicken thë circulation, and raise the spirits day spent in reading, and the oppressive employment of eating and drinking a rubber at night.”
5 Tuesday, Sept. 9.--Another wet day-began to be anxious about getting to town-afraid the weather would not do for riding on horsebackremember the portmanteau—all may be well-a poor creature--good for nothing-engaged to dine at Dr. Griffiths's the walk not so uncomfortable as expected—a sad thing to be a coward-a good soldier should endure hardness---where are the fearful ?-company, only Dr. Griffiths, his daughter, a Counsel learned in the law, and myself. Gentle passions, (says Jonas Hanway) and moderate enjoyments, in the track of religion and common sense, are things always within our reach, and certainly productive of the end we aim at applicable in the present instance. Parsons apt to think lawyers rogues-lawyers apt to think parsons fools--the Doctor continues the practice of toasts --good Mrs. Quick was not forgotten—no meeting without cards-ombre always made a part of the amusement of the wits and statesmen in the Tory Administration of Queen Anne-had a blustering walk home. Finis.
" And now you see what a week's journal is, how literally I am a thing of nought, how truly my time passeth away like a shadow. You desired to hear, and you hear with a witness. If your head did not ache before, surely it will ache after labouring through this tedious scrawl, and well is it that it can be continued no farther. Excuse me this once, and I will be more careful in future. Let me know you have survived it, and it will be a relief to my mind and my conscience. With best wishes to all,
“ Ever yours." .
Of the delight which I have mentioned young people always took in Mr. Stevens's society, the reader will cease to wonder, when he reads his own idea of the propriety of mixing young and old people together in company, and in his statement of the character of old people, he fully pourtrays his own. ::!
1.6 To hear you talk of our enjoying our friends a'
little longer; and of our not being likely to die of old age yet, is laughable enough. Why you are a brisk lively lass, just in your prime, full of epigram and fun; but I am a poor old creature, with one foot in the grave, sans teeth, sans taste, sans eyes, sans every thing. There is sense in your not separating from society, who can be a useful member of it; you have the day before you, and may do much work; but with me the night is come, in which no man can work: it is past twelve o'clock, and time to go to bed. Dr. Gregory, indeed, in his comparative view, recommends the associating the old with the young; and, it may be profitable to both, as with a little attention it may serve to keep all parties in good humour, which is a very good thing; it may make the old, by the lively, agreeable conversation of the young, forget their infirmities; and it may lead the young, from observing the calmed passions and placid manners of the old, to consider old age, to which they are advancing, as no un-comfortable state, nor any formidable evil."
The sentiments of this excellent man, as to the uses to be made of an acquisition of fortune, are so excellent, that I cannot deny myself the gratification of transcribing, nor the reader the pleasure of perusing, the two following letters: and, indeed, there never were persons, who so literally fulfilled, from the suggestions of their own benevolent dispositions, all Mr. Stevens's ideas of the true use of riches. For it will be seen from the letters themselves, that the excellent Doctor G. employed the first fruits of wealth which had been bequeathed to him in adorning the house of God, and in works of charity and benevolence. All Mr. Stevens's letters breathe so much of affection to his friends, so much kindness to all, and so much right feelings of religion, that the difficulty I find is to impose upon myself the irksome duty of withholding any of his correspondence with which I have been furnished.
::“ London, March 4, 1794... .: I was afraid it was bad with the executor's:
wife, that she did not herself acquaint me with: their great and good fortune: for I was sure she must conclude, I should be pleased to receive 'a full, true, and particular account of the bequests with all its concomitant circumstances,' in her, own descriptive style: and it was with no small satisfaction I saw, what I had long anxiously looked for, a superscription in your hand-writing, as I flattered myself, it was a sign you had recom vered your wonted brilliancy; but, alas ! to my great mortification, I found, upon opening the leta ter, that your poor head was still in as uncomfortable a state as ever, and that you wrote, not be-. cause you were better, but because you saw little chance of being better.
“ If I were to say, as you think you hear me say, & the fortune is certainly great, but good only as you . make use of it: I should have no hesitation to