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how sweetly she sang, between her agonizing pains,

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"Jesus can make a dying bed," &ċ. » "Jesus sought me when a stranger," &c.

Being told that the physician thought her case dangerous, she replied, "The will of the Lord be done."

"Guide me, Oh! thou great Jehovah,"&c. with a favourite American bymn, and several others, while those around To a friend who sat up her were bathed in tears at the affecting sight. When taken up stairs with her, she said, "If I die, I hope again, she said, "I think I shall the Lord will reward you, and my never go down any more;" and she dear papa, and mamma, and my never after intimated any desire for sisters, for all your kindness to me." her recovery. Her principal desire At another time she said, "Mamma, ́evidently was, that she might be I must heg of you not to pray for ready for her expected change. She my life. Do beg of my sisters to said she wished to live unto the seek the Lord while he may be Lord if she recovered, She comfound;' to remember their Creplained of the sins of her heart, and ator,' &c." Her nights were nearly of many wicked thoughts. She sleepless at this time, but very happy; said, My dear mamma, I hope she spent a great part of the time in you will forgive me; I have not repeating and singing a great numbeen so dutiful as I ought. I have ber of different hymns. She said "Pray, been passionate." Her behaviour one night to her mamma, had usually been meek and affec- my dear mamma, do not grieve for tionate, her mamma replied. Sheme, promise me you will not." On said, she had felt a contrary dispo- her saying, sition too often. At another time she seemed quite hurt at the expressions of a lady who called, who she imagined flattered her by calling her little innocent, &c. She said, Pray, mamma, do not ask that person to visit me; you know I cannot bear flattery: I do not wish to see her." She often expressed a wish to write to her dear little friends at Bedford, if able; and said she should like to leave them some article as a token of her affection. While conversing on this subject, her little bosom heaved, and tears trickled down her cheeks. Her mamma said, My dear, are you distressed at the idea of never seeing your dear little friends again? She replied, "Yes, but it will be far better to go to heaven.”

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After she had been speaking of her funeral sermon, a friend inquired what the minister should say of her; she replied, "Nothing can be said; but that if I die in the Lord, it is through the blood, and righteousness, of the Lord Jesus Christ." She mentioned the hymns, likewise, which she wished to be sung upon the occasion.

On the 4th of February, when lifted out of bed, and sitting on her papa's knee, she sang,

" "Tis a point I long to know," &c. "Guide me, Oh! thou great Jehovah," &c.

On

"A few more setting suns at most,
Will land me on fair Canaan's coast," &c. .
her friend said, Do you hope it will
be so with you? She replied, " [
rather think it will; I hope so."
She then repeated that verse,
"One gentle sigh her fetters broke," &c.
She requested her father to read the
good shepherd, John x.; and her
sister to read the 23d Psalm.
Saturday, she begged to have her
books and toys brought into the
room, when, with great composure,
she told her eldest sister which she
should like to be given to her differ-
ent little friends, desiring her to
write the names in each book, to-
gether with a text of scripture. In
some she desired to be written,
Suffer little children to come unto
me. To her younger sister she gave
her testament, with these words
written in it, The gift of her dying
sister. Her mamma coming into
the room said, My dear, you appear
quite composed. I will not disturb
you. The dear child observing the
at seeing her little library spead
depression of her mamma's spirits
around her, while she was calmly
disposing of her little earthly trea-
and kiss me, and promise you will
sure, said, "Mamma, pray come
not cry, for I am very happy."

Her principal anxiety now was for the salvation of her brothers and

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sisters, and that she might have patience to endure her affliction without repining; her pains she observed were like red hot knives cutting her. She was greatly distressed at the sorrow of her parents, and was heard to pray, "Dear Lord, support my dear papa and mamma under the parting stroke; enable them to say, The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord." Sanctify my affliction to my brothers and sisters, and give them concern for their souls. Lord, grant me patience, teach me to pray; I know not how to pray, give me a new heart and a right spirit. When my heart and flesh fail, I trust God will be the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.' Yea, though I walk through the dark valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.' Blessed be the Lord for ever

and ever: Amen." At another time she said, "I think I should die more happy, if I knew all my brothers and sisters were following the Lord." The contrary thought scemed to distress her greatly. Her mamma said that the knowledge of their conversion would be very delightful to her in glory. With sweet pleasure beaming in her countenance, at the recollection that there is joy in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, she instantly said, "O yes!

To heaven the joyful tidings flew, The angels tun'd their harps anew,""&c. She expressed an ardent desire that the whole of the family might be called by grace, and was much pleased with a conversation she had with one of her brothers. She told her mamma she was glad to hear him say, that he thought the Lord's people the most happy in the world; she added, "I told my brother if he begged of the Lord to give him a new heart, &c. I thought his request would be granted. Mamma, do pray that my affliction may be sanctified to all my dear brothers and sisters." She was very anxious to see her oldest brother, that she might hear his prayers once more; having been informed it was his intention

to come from the country to see her, she expressed great satisfaction.

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She often, very often, entreated her parents not to grieve on her account: and particularly not to mourn too much when she was gone. Consider," said she, " my sufferings here, and the happiness I hope I shall then enjoy." She often said, "It is the Lord who knows my pains, and he alone can heal." When she felt any disposition to impatience, she remarked, she wished to consider that "the Judge of all the earth must do right." At another time, when repeating some of the promises which were a support to her mind, she inquired if there were not such words as these, "I will keep thee as the apple of mine eye?" which, she said, she had been thinking of. Her mamina asked her, if she would not rather live, if it was the Lord's will to restore her to health? She replied,

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No, I would rather die, than live and commit sin." She always appeared grieved if any one prayed for her life. When asked by any of her friends, what they should pray for; her usual reply was, "That the Lord will reveal himself more to my soul, and that he will give me patience to bear my pains." Thursday, March 19, after very great agony from spasms, she appeared very happy, and to the astonishment of those about her, began singing in a low voice, which, from her weak state, she had been unable to do for some weeks; she was soon exhaust-, ed, but after resting began again, and sang,

"Guide me, Ob thou great Jehovah," &c. and other hymns. On observing her mamma much affected, she said,

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tresses me very much, and I am afraid Pray mamma, do not grieve, it disit will make me unwilling to part if she expressed herself as being very you mourn so much." March 30; happy, and sang her favourite hymns, though with great difficulty, The following night her frame of mind was delightful. "Come, Lord Jesus," she said, “ do not tarry; come quickly." She sang,

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which occasioned violent pain, she said, "I cannot help thinking it a long time before I go to glory: how much longer do you think I can live?"

April 1. She seemed much discouraged. When conversing upon the importance of the soul, she wept very much on inquiring into the cause of her tears, she said, "I want to be quite certain that I shall go to heaven: are you certain I shall?" She was told there was reason to hope the Lord had renewed her in the spirit of her mind, and would receive her whenever she departed. Being reminded of those lines,

"'Tis a point I long to know," &c. she said, "Ah! I have been thinking of that hymn;" she then appeared more tranquil. She said "it was her constant desire to bear the affliction the Lord laid upon her, with submission to his will." sure," said she, I wish to be kept from murmuring." A person saying, that the time of trial lasted much longer than herself, or her friends expected; she said,

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"I am

"Haste, my beloved, fetch my soul

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Up to thy bless'd abode ;" &c. She frequently spake of the consolation that promise afforded her," As thy day is, so shall thy strength be." On April 14, and the two following days, her sufferings became peculiarly distressing, she earnestly entreated all her friends to pray for her, that patience might be given her. "I am afraid," said she, “I may live some weeks longer. Oh when will that happy time arrive?"

Before she began, she said,
"But when my voice is lost in death,
My soul shall praise him best."
When told she would be quite ex-
hausted, her debility was too great
to make any farther attempt, she re-
and after pausing, (to our surprise,)
"I think I oan; I will try;"
plied, "
proceeded with singing,

"Guide me, Oh thou great Jehovah," &e.
with part of that beautiful anthem,
"Beyond the glittering starry skies."

May 17. The Rev. Mr. Hogg, of Stonely, near Kimbolton, inquired the ground of her hope; when she replied, "The merits of Christ." What shall I pray for, my dear? said he. "That I may be supported, and have patience, if you please,

Sir."

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Aug. 2. During this month,she was greatly discouraged, lest she should not be a Christian. She said, "Why, manima, were you not willing to part with me, when I was so very happy? I was then rejoicing in the Lord; scarcely could contain myself for joy: perhaps my life is spared, to gratify you and my father; but you see it is a life of pain and sorrow." She would say sometimes, 66 I am afraid the Lord has forsaken me; pray for me, that I may be supported." She was greatly distressed lest all she had felt should be a delusion. "Do pray earnestly that I may be heavenly-minded. Oh, if Christ is not my friend when I pass through the dark valley, what must I do?" She was often reminded that the love of Christ did not change. August 28. She said, "The worms will soon feed on this poor body."

April 22. Observing her mamma grieving; "Do not grieve," said she," it will soon be all over. When October 18. She expressed a great I am removed,mamma, do you think desire to sing, which she had not you shall say, in the language of Job, been able to do a long time, observThe Lord gave, and the Lord hathing, that although her pains were so taken away, blessed be the name of very great, it might take off the sense the Lord?' Pray do not grieve for of them for a little time. With much me when I am gone." Her soul apparent pleasure she sang, seemed to rise superior to her pain; "Comelet us join our cheerful songs," &c. she then broke out into the most and delightful strains of singing,

Rejoice ye righteous in the Lord," &c.
Father, I long, I faint, to see
The place of thine abode," &c.

"Beyond the glittering," &c. She said, “Haste, happy moment, when I to heaven ascend."

October 20, Wednesday. Her

"Come, we that love the Lord,

And let our joys be known; Join in a song with sweet accord,

last few nights had been nearly understanding. Between one and sleepless. Her mamma remarked, it two o'clock she sang, was very gloomy for her, when all the family were asleep, to lie awake so much. "Oh, no," she said, "it is not gloomy when I can think, but my pains were too great last night." Upon what subject was your attention fixed the night before, my dear? "I thought a great deal about Abraham offering up his son Isaac: how his faith was tried!" Well, my dear, I suppose it led you to think the Lord had laid this heavy affliction upon you, for the trial of your faith and patience? Yes it did: I do think it is so!"

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November 1. Begged her medical attendant might be sent for. When he left her, she inquired how long he thought she could live? When informed it was his opinion that she could not survive long, perhaps a few days only, she said, with great emphasis, "Pray, do not deceive me!" The information did not appear to excite any uneasiness, or the least apparent agitation: she afterwards remarked, "I must die: I must leave you." It was remarked, she was going to live with more exalted society above. She said, "I think I can sing: I will try;" when, with a faultering voice, she

sang,

""Tis a point I long to know," &c. and seemed to wish to proceed, had not the want of breath prevented her. About ten o'clock on Sabbath morning, she begged me to read,

"Come ye sinners, poor & wretched," &c.
several other hymns were also read by
her desire. The dear sufferer could
speak but little during the day, but
expressed herself
as being very
happy. When asked what her father
should pray for, she replied, “ Evi-
dences." You wish for a bright
evidence, I suppose, my dear?
"Yes," she said. The palpitation
at the heart was very distressing to
her, together with her extreme diffi-
eulty in breathing.

On Monday, whenever inquiry was made respecting the state of her mind, her answers indicated that she Enjoyed that peace which passeth all

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And thus surround the throne." After a pause, she said, "Peace be unto you!" A friend observed, she the shadow of death: was walking through the valley of replied, with sweet serenity in her Yes," she before she departed, I reminded her countenance. About half an hour that she had often found comfort from those lines,

"Haste, my beloved, fetch my soul Up to thy bless'd abode."

She added,

Fly, for my spirit longs to see

My Saviour and my God."

With great difficulty she repeated,

"Come we that love the Lord," &c.

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She once articulated, "Jesus;" and several times said, "Come! Come!" A friend observing her difficulty to speak, said, Do you mean, Come, Lord Jesus!' Yes," she replied. The dear child looked most expressively on her weeping relatives; and gently said, "Good bye!" My dear, you are just leaving us, said her mother. and are going to glory; when she answered, “Yes!" and shortly after expired without a groan or struggle, at three o'clock P. M. November 2, aged twelve years ford, October 4, 1806, and dying at and one month; being born at BedIslington, November 2, 1818.

"One gentle sigh her fetters broke, We scarce could she's say gone, Before her willing spirit took Its station near the throne." On Lord's-day, November 8, the Rev. Mr. Yockney delivered a very affecting oration at the grave. She was interred in the New Bunhill Fields, Islington. On the following Sabbath Mr. Yockney preached an appropriate sermon, from Psalm xxiii. 4, selected by the deceased child, to a very numerous and deeply affected auditory.

Review.

Christian Forgiveness invariably con"What is forgiveness? It is the nected with Reconciliation: or, an remission of the punishment due to the of Examination of PETER's Remarks fence;' that is, one would suppose, restoron Christian Forgiveness, publisheding to the offender whatever he has lost, in the Baptist Magazine for Au- and removing whatever he has endured. If, after he is said to be forgiven, he sufgust, 1818. By PAUL. Button and fers any disadvantage whatever, in con Son, 1818. 1s. 6d. sequence of his crime, is not the forgiveness, according to PETER'S own definition, incomplete? is it not deficient both in extent and benevolence? In other. words, too few and too explicit to be misunderstood or evaded, Is the whole punishment remitted, while any part of

IN our Number for November appeared Remarks by AMATOR AQUI, upon PETER'S Essay on Christian Forgiveness. Before that Number was printed, we received from PETER a long manuscript answer to Paul's pamphlet, for insertion in the Magazine, which we do not think it right to admit, because what Paul has written is a separate publication, and therefore, if answered at all, ought to be answered in the same

form.

PETER and PAUL appear to be equally impressed with the importance and necessity of Christian forgiveness. "Life or death," says PETER, "heaven or hell are attached to the exercise or the neglect of it. Though the pardoning love of God, through the Lord Jesus Christ, is the only source of a sinner's salvation, yet the forgiveness which we are required to exercise towards each other, is explicitly stated to be a term of that salvation. If ye forgive men their trespasses, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you: but if ye forgive not men their trespasses, weither will your Father forgive your It is unnecessary to trespasses." say, that PAUL maintains the same. They also equally maintain, that repentance, or at least a profession of repentance, is a necessary prerequisite to forgiveness.

But they differ as to the union between forgiveness and reconciliation; -PETER being of opinion, that in some cases wherein forgiveness is a duty, reconciliation may be either impracticable, or unsafe; whilst PAUL maintains, that forgiveness without reconciliation is dead being alone; or rather, that forgiveness and reconciliation are synonymous ; for he says, by way of remark upon PETER'S definition:

it is endured?" P. 40.

that all which is required of a person It seems, if we understand PAUL, who has injured another, however great the injury may be, (for he says, Page 43, that "the magnitude of the offence must be no obstacle,”) is,

a To conciliate his offended brother, and to get into his favour and friendship, as formerly. For this purpose he is to go to his brother, and confess his fault, tell him he is sorry for having offended him, entreat his forgiveness, and assure him he is no longer his enemy, no longer at variance with him, no longer opposed to his character, or his circumstances, or his interest; but that he is perfectly reconciled to him, and that he takes pleasure in his honour and happiness." P. 19.

And that upon this acknowledg ment the injured person is bound, as a term of salvation, to restore to the criminal his former familiar intercourse, friendship, and confidence ; for, says PAUL, P. 40, "Is the whole punishment remitted while any part of it is endured?"

PAUL farther maintains, P. 46, that "proof of sincere repentance on the part of the offender is not necessary to the consistent exercise of Christian forgiveness."

sincerity of a profession of repentance "3. Because, to make proof of the necessary to the consistent exercise of Christian forgiveness, would be to require a natural impossibility.

"It is not in the power of one human being to give to another any proof of the

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