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cringing round my father's infirmities, with the hopes of inheriting a considerable legacy at his death......He,....it is true.......was less warm in his professions towards me, when he found my father had not named him in his will, and merely left a trifling legacy to Calippe as his niece. Indeed, my fair cousin had abated somewhat of her regard.......but the reason was so natural......I must excuse it. At my return to Parium, she began, - - - - - - by indirect overtures.......to revive those claims in me which accident alone prevented from being much stronger than they were.......But as I did not meet her views with the warmth she wished....... I committed that crime which a woman never forgives....... Still we did not come to an avowed rupture......whatever her resentments were, she locked them in her own bosom. But when I quitted my native place to settle among strangers........ and it was confidently asserted that I had turned Christian....... a general buz of disapprobation took place at Parium .......and then it was my fair cousin found a sweet opportunity to vent her revenge, and she embraced it by hinting a calumny......which was soon established....... I shall speak of it in its proper place. I was now free to obey my own will.....in possession of a large fortune .......and thus I acted. When the arrangement of my father's affairs had taken place......and all legacies........ debts.......and contingencies of every nature were discharged......my surplus amounted to two hundred and twenty talents. I wrote to Hegesias, stating these

circumstances; and that it was my will to contribute myself, and all I possessed, to the service of the Lord. - His reply was.....that I should meet him at Nicodemia, and that he would in the mean time consult Kerinthus - - - - - styled our prophet.....as to the disposition of the Lord respecting me.

Sacrificing......without a moment's hesitation......all that ease......affluence

tune, and the love of my fellow-citizens, would have procured me........ I took my passage immediately for Nicodemia......under pretence of visiting an estate in Bithynia......that I might not lose a moment in attaining to the glories which awaited the Children of Light. I was received by Hegesias with brotherly love......He introduced me to the society, which was small, and blindly guided by the influence of

their prophet.......But what ravished. my soul was his assurances that the great Kerinthus was satisfied with the zeal I had hitherto manifested, and was disposed to draw the last curtain, that I might take a view of those sacred mysteries, which the greatest part of our brethren were only allowed to know symbolically. My soul was raised to the pinnacle of expectation,....and for several weeks Ireceived preparatory instructions from Hegesias, which he pronounced with a sanctity and solemnity altogether calculated to mould me to his entire will.....I was irradiated......I felt as if a stream of heavenly light had burst upon me from the sky.....and, divested of all animal incumbrances...I thought I floated on the bosom of the pure air. I was, however, disappointed....the essons I had received from Hegesias were a mere trial of my principles..... The grand mysteries were still withheld.....They satisfied themselves with its operation on my enthusiasm.....and saw,......that to remove the bandage would be to destroy the avidity of my inflamed temper.......They did a better thing, by contriving that I should, of my own free will and accord, vest them with my full inheritance, to assist the advancement of the kingdom of God.

Hereupon I was appointed a Missionary......And, as I was rather too sleek and well-looking to give an idea of penitence and mortification......my good Hegesias......very ingeniously..... thought of a remedy, by enjoining me to observe several months' rigorous fastings. - . .

This succeeded to a miracle......and I was fairly changed into the ghost of Proteus.

At length Hegesias told me I was

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