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stillness of midnight.......and in a dark dreary spot which he had chosen for the occasion. My zeal......by this time.......became so immoderate, it required all the eloquence of Hegesias to keep it within bounds.......I should have deserted my father.....my country.....my fortune.... But he restrained my impetuosity...... and.....with inflexible sternness,....forbid my leaving my father while he had occasion for my services. “It is unlawful,” said he....“ Thou “ dost but deceive thyself in suppo“ sing thou makestan acceptable offer“ing to the Lord, by abandoning thy “ all for his sake........ No......Thou art “ simply gratifying thy own ardent “ propensities....To prove thy zeal..... sacrifice this unseasonable desire. “ ......... return to thy home......and be “ assured, that by a fulfilment of the “ duty thou owest to thy parent.........

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“ thou dost best prosecute the service “ of the Most High......... As thou art “faithful in this.....so shalt thou be “ called to higher duties.” This reproof was given with a tone so austere and authorative.......I trembled...He accepted my humble regrets e - - - - blessed me..... and departed. . A year had now elapsed......During this period I afforded so many proofs of my zeal and attachment, that I was admitted to an audience with the great Kerinthus........ So was my Stranger called....under whose protection I was received to a second degree of initiation...in a full assembly....before whom Kerinthus officiated in person. All I saw,....and all I heard,....penetrated to my inmost soul | Addressing himself to me......he exclaimed,....“Thou canst alone.......by “ the most intrepid fortitude....and by “ determined resolution,...devote thy“self entirely to thy God....Thy heart “ burneth with ardor.....thy soul pan“teth with holy ambition,.....but thy “ perfection is not the work of an hour....Dost thou feel thy constancy so firm that no dangers can appal.... no artful temptation beguile........ no “ tedious labors deter........ no morti“ fications dismay thee?” He concluded with exhorting me to persevere, and gave me some rules for my conduct, which he said would lighten the fatigues of my journey. A few days after this.......Kerinthus was called away.......and I returned to Parium. I was now such a bigot as to offer to Hegesias...... treasurer of the public purse.......a transfer of my whole property.....He received the proposal very coolly....as if indeed it had been the business of a few drachmas instead of two hundred talents, which, as a faith

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ful steward, I promised to account with the community for....He desired I would re-examine my heart, lest pride or vanity should have instigated me to the act.

I then little suspected all to be a jugler's trick...that, by a hocus pocus, the subtle minister of God changed places with his Master,.....applied to his own use the donations of the simple, who artlessly fancied, they were lending to the Lord........while they acted under the influence of specious knaves, who, .......by a crafty and well regulated ascendency....domineered over the mind .....and mastered the purses of the unwary. . . .” . . - o I however had no suspicion at the time...All my anxiety was, to become a brother.....I believed all they told me ...and, considering myself now as the agent of the community, I redoubled my diligence.....I pursued my business

as I would work a mine, which was to increase those riches I had predisposed towards building the kingdom of God. In a few years my father died.....his death was sudden......though not altogether unexpected,......for his habit of body and style of living had long predicted the fatality of an apoplexy....... I am confident not a creature at Parium - - - - - - - least of all myself........could have thought it possiblesuch an event should be excruciated into theinfamous report you took from that malicious declaimer at Elca, and confidently sat down as a crime against me.....I had always lived on terms of the utmost affection with my father.......and the uniform habits of my life had hitherto gained me the esteem of my fellow citizens. . ------ I cannot believe I had an enemy in the city...........unless, it was old Menecrates........ who had long been

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