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I have been obliged, Lucian, to be more circumstancial......... in the latter part of my life.....than entertaining..... But, if I did not impress you with the irresistible power used to entrap me, it would appear incomprehensible that I should be able....... at one leap......to make a colossal stride from the soft luxuries of Venus Mamilia to the hidden mysteries of the kingdom of light. . I shall pass over my years of probation......... and hasten to that period wherein I played a very distinguished part among the Christians. o At my return to Parium.....I found my father labouring under the premature infirmities of age - - - - - He therefore determined to put a stop to any future mercantile transaction.....balanced accounts with his various correspondents . - - - - - and established the possession of ease and independence, that the re

mainder of his days might pass quietly away among his friends and relations. This he told me was his motive for recalling me to Parium, that I might... as his only son......... take upon myself the remaining concerns which lay variously on the Euxine.....AEgean...... and Sicilian Seas. This was a thunderstroke to all my favorite views.......but I was bound in duty.....and I respected the obligation too highly, to resist. Having consented to adopt my father's plans....I had a fair opportunity of becoming.....without either labor or vexation.....a reasonable....ordinary....

man. A chain of business........ by keeping the mind constantly employed.....by ,

change of scene, which repeated journeyings would occasion.....by that necessary attention which involves a

man's interest and fortunes........is, of

all remedies, that best calculated to remove the visionary pursuits of an inflamed-imagination;......and of converting the principles of a Platonic enthusiast, without either his knowledge or concurrence. But such was the perverseness of my fate, that the contrast......between the interested......worldly.....views of such people as I was now cast among; - - - - - - and the simple,....artless.....friendship of those benevolent beings in the forest......served only to give firmness to my determination of returning the first opportunity to the bosom of pure, unclouded, tranquillity. My temper was certainly altered.... and so were my wishes...The magical enthusiasm which led me into the wiles of the villa of Mamilia, were metamorphosed into the moral enthusiasm which harmonized my feelings, and left me no other desire than that of ending my days in the society of an undisguised, harmless, people, with whom I could indulge the full complacency and affections of my soul, free from all apprehension of deception or art. Nearly half a year had now elapsed without my hearing from either the Stranger.....or the guide. At length I received a letter from the latter....with some goods that were consigned to me from Smyrna........ in which he told me he should soon visit me at Parium......He shortly afterward came to our house, by the name of

and brought several commissions from our correspondent....In these affairs he discovered so much intelligence and . capacity, that he won my father's heart • * * * * * * * who readily accepted his offers to execute some commissions we had on the Ionian coast.

This intercourse naturally produced intimacy.....and I had as many private opportunities as I could wish, of discoursing with him..........I obtained from him some books.......at that time highly prized and difficult to be had.... containing the three last years of the life of their Master......his miraculous actions.......public prophecies and exhortations,.....with his private instructions to his chosen followers.

These books,.....you may believe,.... lost none of their effect with me....... I conceived the most exalted passion for this Son of Man.......which was strengthened by Hegesias.......and so

the night before he left Parium, to initiate me into the first degrees of their

I contracted my vows in the solemn WOL. II. D

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